Wei-Wei

Okay, I fold.

In Uncategorized on April 10, 2010 at 12:07 am

in the middle

of a

to binge

or not to binge?

mood right now.

today i had parent teacher

conferences.

i felt

confident

and cheerful

despite the

suckup fail

from yesterday.

then just before leaving school

i snagged a few

biscuits.

okay,

4.

biscuits.

butter cookies.

whatever you want to call them.

at first i panicked

and tried to count calories

but i reminded myself

that it couldn’t have added up

to more than 500 calories

so i was all good

in the calorie-limiting

department.

now before i got home

i had dance class

which i liked

because my parents

watched.

i felt good and cheerful

on an

ENDORPHIN HIGHHHHH

and had a good dinner

of curry

with rice

with carrots

mushrooms

clams.

but now

i’m feeling

a little depressed.

i don’t understand

why.

maybe it’s because

i feel like

i’m close to

a binge.

on walnuts.

i grabbed a handful

then another

and now i’m contemplating going back

for more.

that’s at least 150 calories right there.

i’m not

even

that hungry.

i ate and borderline binged

on apples.

one large apple.

sliced.

diameter about 3 inches.

now that’s a big apple.

i wasn’t

even

that hungry

for the apple.

but i’m conflicted

because

i

need

those

calories

right?

**

What do you do when you “need” something but something inside you won’t let you have it?

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