happy bingeday to you

happy bingeday to you,

happy bingeday to you,

may you lose all contro-ol,

happy bingeday to you!

many happy returns calories, my friends.

i decided to eat with gusto today.

is it worth the guilt for this

little experiment?

my answer is:

i don’t know yet.

“binging” for me

is a long,

drawn-out

sneak-a-biscuit-here

sneak-a-handful-there

sort of ordeal.

before i know it

i’ll be on another of my timely

after-meal

(and between-meal)

(and before-meal)

(and during-exercise)

(and during-homework)

calorie buildup checkups.

and horror of horrors:

i realized

that 62 + 25 + 70 + 10 + 10 + 75 + 150 + 200 =

602.

FUCK oh dear.

I’M SCREWED this isn’t very good.

I LOST ALL FUCKING CONTROL i think i may have eaten a little too much.

now i could react to this

in one of two ways:

1) get over the guilt and keep binging and treat it as a binge meal/day

or

2) stop cold turkey

and restrict for the rest of the day.

somehow

even if 1) happens

2) usually happens right afterwards.

so what happens

if i go

1) binge

all the way?

will i gain weight?

or not?

i’ll write up a lab report tomorrow.

i promise.

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How do you react to unexpected loss of control? Do you cut back immediately, or do you throw your control out the window?