first off, i’d like to thank you all
for adding to my collection of “<3s”.
it really was uplifting to see all the
encouraging and awesome comments
that all you guys leave, all tallied up
into one, easy-to-see tally.
(i “collected” 8 hearts, by the way
but 10 if you count the three that
Mary gave me.)
i can’t say much about my progress
but that i’ve kind of burned out on the
peanut butter thing.
reflection: fats really just don’t sit well
with my stomach. be it the healthy kind
(nuts, nut butters, etc) or the not-so-healthy kind
(greasy hainanese chicken, fries, oily stir-fries)
during my ED process, i consumed
little, to NO fats. needless to say,
my stomach is a little scared of them now
so i’ve unconsciously sort of weaned myself
off of my home-made peanut butter.
a little sad, really, since it was so delicious
and i was looking forward to make more…
but don’t worry.
i’ll make more.
(i was worried that i would finish it all before
my parents came home and that i wouldn’t
be able to show them some of my culinary skillz
but it looks like that’s not the case.
it’s probably not the best thing to show them
since it’s clumped up and hardened in the fridge
but i still like to add a little scoop clump blob chunk
of peanut butter to my breakfast.
they’re delicious, but in small amounts!
see, i’ve learned.)
i’m getting a little hooked on chocolate chips, though.
i probably eat 1.5 servings everyday
a small handful, here or there – delicious.
they’re semi-sweet, too, but sort of have
the same queasy effect on me that peanut butter had?
i should probably cut back a little.
i’ve been eating a few after chinese medicine
(i always get the “license” to eat something
after the nasty bitter medicine)
and a few sprinkled on yogurt
and in my yogurt messes, in with fruit,
and… not on oatmeal, because suprisingly
i haven’t been having much oatmeal lately!
i guess it’s just a little too hot.
i bought a carton of yogurt
(sugar-free, low fat, i admit)
that is rated amongst the best
(in terms of taste, texture, etc)
amongst expats here in this city.
it is good, wonderfully thick for chinese yogurt
but still. not as thick as greek.
it’s sort of like at a “drinkable” level
and i can’t eat it with a fork.
(can you eat greek yogurt with a fork??
is it THAT thick?)
anyway, these past couple days
i dice up an apple the night before
and in the morning, i add this to a bowl:
- diced apples
- few scoops of raw oats (a lá Caitlin)
- cover it all with yogurt
- sprinkle with raisins
- sprinkle with chocolate chips
- sprinkle with oats garnish
and then i mix it all up,
and it becomes a yogurt mess!
yum yum yum.
(i wouldn’t have added the oats
but i realised that it was missing some carbs energy,
so i thought of Caitlin’s snack and just
added a few scoops in!
it wasn’t as nasty and raw as i thought
it sort of melted like cold oatmeal
and the bits that didn’t melt tasted like…
anywhooo, in other news, i need you guys’ opinion:
i torrented downloaded legally
Jillian Michael’s 30 Day Shred
and i’ve already done Day 1 and
i am doing it
in the hopes of becoming more toned,
because i suffer from a case of being
“skinny fat”. i remember a post Abby did
one day: “I fear flab.”
i may be skinny, but i’m not strong,
athletic, or particularly muscular.
i wish i could change that, so when i saw
how short the 30 Day Shred was
(27 minutes every day? sign me up.)
i decided to try it, to tone myself.
i am terribly sore right now, especially
in my upper body and back, and i used
2-pound weights dictionaries.
(i weighed them. i actually think
they’re closer to 1-1/2 pounds.)
just to put it in perspective, the program
suggests that “beginners” start with
3-pound weights. i guess i really need
to work on upper body strength!
i like Jillian Michaels. she is very
motivating. and it was a good workout.
i am worried about what kind of effect this will have
on my body, and my mind.
the repetitive, strict nature of this program
could trigger some obsessive thoughts
not about food, but about exercise.
(good thing: i’ve vowed to eat more
because of this program.
carbs before, protein after. muscle please!)
i’ve never really been a big exerciser
even during ed.
i just restricted food, and didn’t really increase
exercise much. (i started walking everyday,
but that was it.)
i’m hoping to become more fit and more
“toned” / “sculpted” / “shredded”
by the end of these 30 days.
if i go through with it.
So what do you think? Should I continue with it, or not? Have you had experiences with the 30 Day Shred, or any other hard exercise program?