summer is finally here.
summer. is. finally. here.
now, what is it about those four words
that irritates me so?
on one hand, i’m extremely happy and
am looking forward to relaaaaaax, but…
i realise that i kinda sorta have forgotten how to
strange. i have agendas and schedules on the brain.
it ties in with that productivity issue i mentioned.
i mean, okay, i’m being productive right now
and posting something after four days, but
i have this list of things to do:
- send an email inquiring about a dog adoption meetup on sunday
- apply for an architecture camp which i am not so sure about
- reply to an email from a lovely reader
- find more potential summer camps in shanghai
- buy a damn graphing calculator
okay maybe i’m not being entirely serious, but the point is
what used to occupy this list was schoolwork… and blogwork.
(i’m not implying that blogging is work.
it is, frankly, because i’ve been putting off this post
for two days, already.
and if there’s one feature of bloggers i’ve noticed,
it’s that they’re very punctual.
blog publishing is so fast and so easy,
that posts are almost always very up-to-date.)
but the subject of this post today is…
now, let me back up and explain to you the situation
at our school.
nay, in the fair town of verona city of shanghai!
shanghai is divided into east and west by a river.
the river in chinese is known as a “pu.”
and east in chinese is “dong”, and west is “xi”.
so, put them together and you’ve got “pudong” and puxi”.
(“xi” is pronounced shee, by the way.)
well, now let me introduce my school.
my school has two campuses: one in pudong, and one in puxi.
i do believe that puxi is the older one, and…
there’s always been a rivalry between the two.
i live closer to the puxi campus, and i’m on the waiting list.
the problem is, i don’t want to go to puxi.
i don’t want to go through what i went through again
when i transferred from my old school.
besides, i’ve made an identity for myself here,
with my teachers and peers.
now, another explanation: maybe about 60% of my classmates
are on the waiting list for puxi.
and… in our little “friendship group”… about 85% is leaving next year.
to puxi. they got accepted.
and most of them are in the “cooler” part of the group.
(that sounds so mean, but if i had to be honest
they’d be the ones i’d want to be associated with.)
now, i could see the fact that almost all of them are leaving
as a bad thing and cry and be led along to puxi with them,
or i could stay at pudong.
and continue building on my identity.
y’see, it’s like a new beginning, for me.
in the beginning of next semester, there will be new kids.
new kids = new potential friends.
in the beginning of this year, i was withdrawn and aloof
of everyone else.
as a result, i didn’t “bond” with the group as i would’ve
if i had “joined” earlier.
(or it could be that we just weren’t meant to be friends.)
(or maybe because i’m boring! gasp.)
so i was thinking…
why not make a new start for myself?
make new friends next year, from scratch.
i’m staying, and that’s final.
i don’t want to readjust
i don’t want to leave
i don’t want to be blindly led on by “friends” which
i’m not even sure about.
i just hope i can find someone i can get along with next year.
wish. me. luck!
ps: remember my suckup fail?
well, SUCK IT suckaaaaas,
cos the last day of school was a suckup WIN.
does anybody know how to balance out
the blue background?
i use the colour balance tool in Photoshop, but
i can’t edit the cookie and the background separately.
blue does not suit food.
What are you looking forward to at the END of this summer?